Beating Now
UCSB life
He knows I can’t give him everything. Right now, a part of me is still reeling. He doesn’t look past it and ignore it, but he faces it head on, because he knows it will help me heal. I know it hurts him and i want so badly to be able to fix myself and be ready to show him the same care and affection that he’s shown me. I’m not there yet, but soon. Soon I will be.
"These boys only listen to me when I’m singing, but I don’t feel like singing tonight."
Sara Bareiiles
Somebody I used to know
You say it hurts that I won’t even look at you anymore. But, I can’t. It’s not that I want to hurt you. I bear no ill will. But I can feel my heart breaking all the time and it’s not fair. You’ve been hurting me from the beginning and you want me to pretend I’m ok, smile, and say hello? Sorry. You’re just somebody I used to know.
Better. He makes me feel better.
Yeah, you missed out. SORRY FOR YOU
I’m happy now. So don’t get all up in my face and ruin it.
dude, the UPS guy totally cracks me up haha
If you’re telling your girlfriend it was all one sided, you’re lying and everyone knows it. But go ahead. Tell her lies and comfort her in your arms. It’s cool. She sees past it enough to be insecure and jealous. I know you remember what happened. You were more sober than I was at the time. And you were the one flirting with me just days before getting back with your ex. If you’re not honest with her, be honest with yourself. You’re an asshole that didn’t wanna work for the prize and settled for a consolation. And your girlfriend that runs her mouth about me, I feel sorry for her. She’s only insecure cuz her man ain’t treating her right. As for me, I’m done with you. I have someone who cares about me and wants to work to deserve me. This is my last post concerning you, and it’s only because I’m sick and tired of your girl blowing up the twitter, talking a whole bunch of mess that isn’t even true.
It was unimaginable.
This boy looks like a hotter version of J.Cole. He needs to be in my life.
FUCK YOU
Fuck you and your coward ass. Seriously, FUCK YOU! You just playing games, tryna get what’s easier. Well yeah, I’m not easy like those other bitches. I’m sorry you have to work for it. Now I know I made the right decision. You weren’t strong enough. You wouldn’t have made the cut. I’m too good for you.
I’m done with this. I can’t keep doing this with you. Yeah, I still have feelings for you, but you keep dancing around the real issues. You say you want this. You say you want that. You say you want me, but I don’t know what to believe anymore. My heart has gone through too many ups and downs. I’m done with you. Done.
Time just keeps ticking by.
